Getting closer 

2 days and 14 hours away. I can’t tell you how blessed we are. All the money and gifts, all the family coming in from out of town. All my family here in town. 

I have a constant eager stomach ache (in a good way) waiting for everything to happen. Can’t believe it’s here. I’m so overwhelmed with happiness. 

Yesterday the in laws came in and treated us to dinner (we are spoiled), tonight my m-law is cooking dinner for us and the rest of the family arriving today (again, spoiled).

-kp 

I’m sorry 

I’m tired. I still feel hung over from the weekend.

 Im sorry for the bad decisions. 

I felt embarrassed by what I heard. 

I didn’t even sound like myself. 

I’m so sorry, please forgive me.

I don’t want to be my destructive self.

I want to be the one who loves to much.

I want to be proud and confident of who I was made to be. 

Teach me how to be that me. 

Free to Eat

A thanks for the blessings to eat. Learning that food can be your friend and not your enemy. Food is to survive, to starve is the worst feeling once you re wire your brain and learn to eat well and happily. To have energy, that pounding head ache subsides, exercising with joy instead of exhaustion. Loving others instead of annoyance. Being healthy and happy, feeling good, feeling strong. It may be the hardest lesson learned, but worth it when you come out on the other side.