I want to write to you.
Put my thoughts out.
I have a lot of fears.
I have fears of him cheating.
I have fears of him leaving.
I need these fears and thoughts to go away. I need to trust him.
He works hard, we work hard together.
Just because things are falling apart for others doesn’t mean it will happen to us.
Can we make it?
Make us make it!
I don’t want him to ever feel smothered or suffocated.
Ease the part of me that can do that to him.
I want him to feel loved and free.
That we are in this together, we are.
I am eating right now and I am not sure why.
I am not even hungry. It’s 10:23 PM and I am usually sleeping by now.
Its getting closer and I think I am more scared than I think I am.
People words haven’t helped me, and I pray that we are different.
I think that’s why I cried tonight. I need some comfort.
As I sleep tonight I pray for peace.
I pray to rest well and to wake up happy.
Teach me how to live according to your way.
Help us to always follow you.
I fall to my knees for you
I know you will make me strong
My confidence comes from you
I know with you I can do anything
I can get through anything